Shear Serenades

you wanted to cut trans people's hair
so you became a barber   we are crouched
on a decaying log at the waterfall's trail
stream's beginning    forest mulch breathing
it's our first friend date    i see a me in you
possibility i haven't yet known    future from yesterday
you carry your clippers    neck towel, now mine
a small barber    bag pre- & one-day post-pandemic
do you know what you want?&
you talk about the lover you'd leave your lover for
it is late September    i am beginning to love again
we are trying to catch the sun before it sets.
you tell me about the Russian mafia
you suspected ran the barber school
in Brooklyn     the clients    faded    aggression
shut doors where were you supposed to go?
my eyes widen at the selfie cam mirror
all the queers in Bushwick want a bowl cut!
i don't live there     the bowl is the childhood
i've outgrown
so we swerve         we angle we rectangle         we shape-up who do you become? you wanted to cut trans people's hair
so you became a barber we speak of surgeries
& testosterone, the usual     i don't want it
polyamory sounds difficult     monogamy is too&
the beech trees believe us
circled stones listen   who we are
who we are mistaken for
who we came here to be.

& words like tapered   fade  line-up outside
my vocabulary   no matter how many barbers
i've seen   we don't speak the same tongue
my mother still disapproves   my brain refuses
to conform, still
& lightbulb moment

River 瑩瑩 Dandelion is a poet, educator, and healing arts practitioner. He writes to connect with the unseen and unspoken so we can feel and heal. River is the author of remembering (y)our light, which was a finalist for the North Street Book Prize. He won the Lambda Literary Award for Exceptional New LGBTQ Writers. River holds an MFA in Creative Writing from Rutgers University—Newark, where he taught undergraduate creative writing. He has received fellowships from Baldwin for the Arts, Kundiman, Lambda Literary, Saltonstall, Ucross, Vermont Studio Center, and elsewhere. He is working on his debut full-length poetry manuscript. riverdandelion.com.